First of all, i'd like to say that, for the most part, I like who I am, and that God made me the way he did for a reason. But I'd venture that most of the following is the result of healthy thinking...
- crosswords
- read more. anything. Including the newspaper.
- enjoy more classical/jazz/old R&B music. there's just so much of it that it overwhelms me.
- keep my room clean on a regular basis
- enjoy practicing. classical guitar. pop guitar. whatever. and be able to make it communication with God. not a chore. that would be awesome.
- procrastinate less. a lot less.
- give things away without thinking about it. and I mean things that I really like.
- take every chance I can to collaborate with another musician. no matter how good or bad i think they are.
- learn to play cello
- spend less money on various and sundry stupid things and more on musical equipment or fixing what I already have.
- Be more pleasant/congenial/talkative when I'm around a large group of my extended family. I tend to shell up in those circumstances and end up appearing very aloof. Especially with my grandparents. In a couple cases, unfortunately, its already too late. That might be an inappropriate way to say it, but I don't know how else to.
- Absorb more from my classes. My music classes especially, but also stuff like history. I really envy people that know history. Thats what a liberal arts education is for, but I spend too much time thinking that learning stuff like that is a waste of time.
- Take my thoughts and try to make them into songs. I'm too self-critical so I never finish anything. And sometimes I never even start. I'm also going to put journaling into this category. That includes song ideas, thoughts in general, things i want to say to God or that he said to me, people i need to remember to pray for. Because, to be honest I suck at remembering bible verses and people that I need to pray for.
- keep track of my money. What's it called? A register? yeah, one of those things.
- get to know people for the sake of knowing them and investing in something other than myself.
- eat more organic/vegetarian food. and floss. floss more. both of those i think will pay off later.
- participate in more theatre productions. I kind of stopped after high school. But i love it and i kick myself every time i see i play or musical and wish i would have auditioned.
- exercise on a regular basis. not like every day for a week and then wait another two months for inspiration.
- and thats another thing, inspiration seems so hard to come by, and when it is there its like its there and gone and its not there long enough for me to do anything constructive or make good habits from it.
-Get better at haggling. Even saying the word "haggling" makes me cringe, but I think there's a way to do it. Some of the places I buy equipment from have such a huge profit margin that I shouldn't feel bad trying to pay less for things. I just get really uncomfortable and wimp out.
- Im really bad about compartmentalizing things in my life, as scattered as I am. I just have a tendency to do that- with my friends especially. I wish I could just be like, "Hey, I'm sorry, I don't want to do that," but in a way that people know that I genuinely enjoy who they are.
- Save up some money for a good turntable and speakers so I can really enjoy my moms old records (and the small collection I have from raiding thrift stores). Im still rocking the old school
Fisher Price briefcase-record-player I used when I had Annie: The Soundtrack and Sesame Street Goes Disco on heavy rotation.
this list is subject to changes and amendments.
Edit-Today @ 6:23 pm: I also want to make a 'SHRUTE FARMS BEETS' shirt for all of my friends. Including myself.